Isn't life grand?

Well, this is a sarcastic title...let me explain:I got a call from my friend who said that she needs $1700 by the 28th in order to not take my hubby to court. Again, let me explain: my hubby didn't have enough credit to get a car therefore she cosigned with him. He had to go "away" for a couple of months (18 to be exact) and he left his car with a "friend" in order to have this person pay the car off while he was away. This friend stopped paying the car, would not answer our calls or texts and racked up tickets left and right almost every single day for a couple of months (how this car didn't get towed away sooner is beyond me)The car was finally recuperated by the financing company and now besides the fact that there is a lot of debt out there pending as to car payments, there is now $1700 in ticket debt to the city of residence of said "friend". That's where my friend comes in...besides the fact that she is furious regarding the financing debt that is due, there is also the ticket money that needs to be paid before July 28th or else her license will be suspended until paid. My hubby is not in a position whatsoever to pay any of these bills right now and even though it is not "technically" my responsibility, of course it's my responsibility! I've spent all my evening crying because I have no idea how to get this money and I really don't want my Hubby taken back to court and maybe even put away. I am upset and sad and angry and so many things at the same time; that's how I went to bed...very forlorn outlook on life.

I woke up this morning with hope, feeling lots better than I did last night and I was running an errand for my dad at about 9am. About 3 blocks from my house a car ran a Stop sign and hit my car. I had the right of way and thank God was going about 20MPH and she was going pretty slow as well when she turned and hit my car. Nobody was hurt in any of the cars but I was so upset; I think she started off thinking that it was my fault because she started off screaming at me as to why I hadn't stopped. I told her that I didn't have a Stop, but she did...I don't think she believed it until another driver that had witnessed the crash told her that she was wrong. I was at the site for about an hour and 15 minutes until the cops came and made a report and such. I got a ticket for expired license plates which I was going to get this week...so much shit going on in my life right now that I feel like SCREAMING!!!

But we have to look on the good side right? My kids are healthy, nobody got hurt, I have insurance, my car is driveable...so many things...but I still have such a bad, bad headache today!

Aspiring photographer

Have I ever mentioned that I'm an aspiring photographer? I currently do not own a fancy camera (I'm lucky to have a point and shoot) and am unable to afford all the fancy programs but oh, do I love to take pictures. One of my dreams for when I grow up is to be a freelance/hobby photographer. I love looking at beautiful photographs online and I think that the Internet era has made it so much easier for people with aspirations like mine to find inspiration and tutorials for so much. I know that that's not the only thing needed, but it sure helps.
As I was looking through my camera's memory chip yesterday I was surprised to see mostly pictures of my 9 month old daughter and not as many of my 8 year old son...hmm...I wonder why? I'm rationalizing that he's not doing as much interesting stuff as he used to (playing video games, summer schoolwork...eh, not so fun) whereas my daugher is discovering so much (eating my moms flowers from the garden, trying to touch the cat while at the same time kind of scared); then again there's that fact that she's so much more a willing subject to photograph than my son is. I hope he never asks me where all his pictures from his 8th year on have gone, because I'll have no idea what to tell him. Oh well, I know there's a shoebox full of pictures of him somewhere in here :)

Places I find inspiration: shuttersisters.com, pioneerwoman.com

I've come back from the dead...yet again :)

I know it's been forever that I've been gone but I'm back and this time hopefully for good. I'm currently living with my parents in their basement which they graciously fixed up for me and my kids into a pseudo mini apartment and we are VERY grateful. I have had a baby girl since I started this blog about a year ago (or more) She is currently 9 months old.

I have had A LOT of ups and downs since that time as well, I've gone from being fine and in a relationship to single and very depressed to stronger than ever and engaged. I am still working in an elementary school and while the pay sucks the hours are great, the job is great, the people are great and summers off are definitely great.

I think that is all that I will be writing for now but I will have to keep reminding myself to try and come back at least every couple of days if not more often.

Thanks to anybody who reads about me and my life :)